Ojective Oriented

To win a war, you maybe to lose some battles. That's what objective oriented people do. Here's a thought. What if we can apply the same methods in life? Isn't that interesting?

"To achieve your objective, sacrifice is a must."

But, to fully understand the rule of Operation Objective Oriented (OOO), one need to understand the World War II war reports. Well, some of you might not even be interested in reading them. Well, read no more! Come and drop shells with me and the answers to all doubt shall be answered!

With the Companions of Heroes, you will experience friendship, hardship, stress-ship, joy-ship, evil-ship and also best of all is the taste of revenge, the sweetness of it all!

I will..

I will...

Slow down playing CoH,
Spend more time with you,
Get to know you more,
Slow down smokin',
Take more pictures of that gorgeous you,

If Valentina Vaughn is my girlfriend...

I will...

Stop playing CoH,
Stop watching porn,
Stop idling around,
Stop building castle in the air,
Get a life,
Get more closer to you,
Smoke with you,
Do everything with you,
Not only take pictures, but videos of you and me,

If Nautica Thorn is my girlfriend...

Ja-Na!

Vacation..

To have mum taught me her ultimate secret recipe was an honor. I finally get to do it with my own to hands and it turned out fine. Taste the same! yeay! But, I still have to work on the presentation.

Basically, my whole holiday was more to perfecting my bakery skills. Which I wanted to always do for so long!

Though rain pours down every single day in Miri, Sarawak. I didn't grumble or mind a bit, I miss the chill weather, miss the mosquito bite and miss the fact that I'm back home( At least in Borneo).

I wish that I really could make it back home to my hometown. I guess the next trip will be definitely be it. Though long lost friends are off back to work or out of my hometown, I definitely miss the ambiance itself.

Its great to see relatives far and near ties gather together though some are still having troubles internally. I do really hope that things will patch up for them.

As for me, I guess it was a great CNY, for me its a new start. I really can feel it this time. 2009 maybe a year where crisis submerge all over globally. For me its going to be a great year! Ya-Ta!

Now I'm back, lets make it happen people! Though my Mind is still dangling on visual. Its getting back its sight by the day.

Enough grief, enough agony, enough jealousy, enough pain.

Time to shine, time to roll out, time to be busy, and time to be bright again!

Until then ja-na

Idiocracy

What came out on the newspaper recently and also accusation towards the wrong party is total the act of idiotic.

How can a legalize sport is to be put to blame being using illegal items for the sport? Now what? You guys don't get the cut in between? Or just plain jealous? Or is it just lazy to even put effort in supporting the interest of the younger generation of this country.

Yes, paintball is legal in Malaysia, else why they held tournament all around Malaysia? Its generating money for everyone. The society is happy, as to the dealers, as to the law that legalized it on certain safety requirements.

No, airsoft is not legal in Malaysia, but hey, if other countries can legalize the sport, why not us? If you would to google up airsoft products. Even the military and law enforcers are impress with the result that is given. I guess Malaysia's Protector has more advance products and they have no interest in this type of bullshit.

But, if one were to get caught possessing or owning one, don't blame it on the others, don't blame it on paintball. Just make sure that airsoft is either STRICTLY illegal or ban it straight. Why is there still bits and pieces around whereby the big shots are the ones that is to get blamed for.

I'm not siding on even both side. As the matter of fact I love airsoft more then paintball, but the law abides Malaysian citizen to own one, so all we have is Youtube clips and also catalogs from the internet to quench our thirst for the passion of that sport.

I would really like to see the country evolves with more common sense in the brain and not just "whats my cut" philosophy to everything that goes in and out of the country. Fuck that!

It kills the enthusiast, it kills the dreams, therefore, it kills the interest to even live in one country when the law of it just doesn't make any sense. To evolve, to grow, one needs to bare with the consequences, due in time it will be all good. That's called effort. Is there effort in this matter?

Don't just look at the dark perspective of a sport or even a product. Think of the bright perspective on what good can it do to the society and also the country and it will be all smooth. Bad seeds will always grow, else what are law enforces for? Minimizing the cause is better then having it infected all over.

Its human nature that laws are mend to be broken, but if its kept and preserve in the proper correct manner, we can uphold and upgrade to be better human beings and not just being stagnant at one point but wish so much to grow.

What's Love?

Some say,"Love makes your world a colourful one", or even "Love makes one blind" or "Love makes you things you never thought of doing before"

But what does it actually feel or mean, this Love. What does it do? How does it affect individuals? Does love have categories? Does love need conditions? Does Love even exist anymore?

Well, from My point of view, its nothing but bunch of bullshit. Its bullshit when someone is in denial of that love for something or someone. Love doesn't have to be shown or to be written. Love speaks for itself.

But, like every other word meant. Love too has pros and cons. Hah! I bet you even never thought of this one didn't you?

Lets see, whats so bad about Love? Lets start from the top. When there's love, there's jealousy. When there's jealousy, there's hatred, when there's hatred, here comes the interesting part. There's scandal, after that it becomes heartache, then it all goes around in a big circle again. Maybe I missed out a few other more important ingredients in this process of love.

But more importantly, what or would I put it, how did all of that happened? *smiles*

I can tell you one of many. It all started when a boy tells a girl, "Be mine, and I'll give you the moon and the stars". It used to be pickup lines back in our parents age.

Today its "Be mine, but you can't talk or meet any other guys"..?

So what does all that means? Its conditional Love! Imagine something so wonderful being put in as a contract? Something so pure, so sacred. Its like planting orchids then one fine day one will isolate it, cause its too precious or beautiful to be expose.

What da fuck is that suppose to mean? Does one ever remember who gave that flower to human beings? How can you decide one something that is not even yours? How can greed can just arise when one is dealing with another one? not thing?

Then comes the type of love.."I Love you, but I'm not in Love with you". Now tell me what da fuck is that suppose to mean? *giggles*

Does love have categories now? wow..There's so many rules and regulations in Love, where is the freedom? Cause that's all humankind have left.

No wonder you see people argue, kill, fight. Its all because in the beginning itself one is already spoiling the core.

Protesting or showing hatred doesn't help to get Love back. But, to build the One Love that always and has been in all human being is what we should do. So that, our future generation will enjoy the true meaning of Love. Ja-Na

2009

Everyone and every newspaper in town is saying that 2009 will have a great economical impact where everything will go through and not down the drain. Just how much more worse can humans thing about the situation that Earth is going to face?

Why can't the newspaper write the same fact but in a positive manner so that everyone has positive mindset to be ready for next year, at least!

If the whole world is to think that economically its going to slum, even the brightest philosopher can't help! Even religion can't help.

All we need to do is to look forward to 2009 with a positive mind so that everyone can emit that positive wave to the world and it will definitely be a better place to live on.

The word "teamwork" is not created for fucks. This is the time to make it to good use. Why can't there be harmonious atmosphere where everyone can bloom from it in economical aspect and civilization aspect?

Ja-Na

Believe

I used to go to church every single morning since i was standard 3 until I finished SPM. I even went to sunset mass and Sunday mass. In between all that I went to other churches. To cut it short. I was raised S.I.B, educated and baptize in a Protestant church and getting my PhD in a Roman Catholic church. I guess still, my Mommy is the defending champion, she even attended masses in a Methodist church.

Enough about religion. What about what one believes in doing?

Do you believe that you can touch the moon and the skies? Do you believe that you can be successful in whatever field you are in the current future? Do you believe that one day, the world will be under one and one only ruler?

Sometimes it makes me wonder. Believing that one day I'll find the Right one. It never happens. But it turns out to be the other way round. I believe so deep in my heart that I marked the day that my eldest brother will come home(Sarikei) cause I believe that he's coming back. I can imagine him coming home, eating meals together, having fun doing traps in the backyard for naughty cats that steals our cat's food. For all I knew, that day was the day my late father passed away, and he really came back.

When I believe that I would have someone, someone to share my the air that I breath. It always ends up bad. Either the parents don't like me, or the family have to move to another state or country, or my mom just don't like her, or even as simple as a misunderstanding when she was have "the moment" of the month.

Like my colleague told me, religion is to give us hope. That I totally agree. For all the do and the don't in my past life nothing went the way I wanted it to be. But, I did hope for one thing. The one thing that I always ask from God in church every single morning in my prayers before I go to school. I asked for an interesting life(since life in Sarikei sucks to high heaven).

Guess what, I am having an interesting life. Going to college at a later age. Working and experiencing at the wrong moment of my life. Not having a pretty resume to be hand over to a company when I applied for a job. Jobless at one point of time. Working with wedges that can hardly be enough for a 16 year old kid gets for his/her pocket money a month.

Here I am writing this blog. Thinking what did I believe in having. I had it. Its because I believe that I'm already in it. What I don't understand is the culture shocks and the statements that people I've met and experience is way beyond my wildest imagination.

Right now, what I am thinking is actually nothing. I just don't know what to believe in now. I'm lost, I'm stranded, I'm still floating in mid air with water around me.

Sometimes there so much that I want to share, but it just seem to be insane to other human being.

Sometimes I really wanted to wake up and write something in here but the minute I woke up is already time to go to work.

I live a very simple life and yet its so hard for me to cope with it. I won't want to imagine what will a guy with a wife and 2 kids do.

Believing is so true that it happens. But the circumstances that one has to face is totally out of the picture that one painted in the mind. Can that be avoided? or minimized? Or is it against the Law of Nature that we are in control of the consequences which is applied to each and every step of one's move.

hmm..I guess I think too much. I wish I could just sit in a library full of books and do nothing but read and just don't care about whats happening and just keep on thinking of answers to my questions. Well, that's not going to happen cause I'm not a smart kid that have the luxury of being in an education facilities that provides such kinds.

Sometimes its hard to accept the path that one walks when one sees the other one walks a path which is so much different from his. One can be tolerant, patient, accepting, forgiving, sharing, caring, and learning. To what extend can one go? To what extend can one hold? Til then...Ja-Na

Thinking Thoughts

To care for someone was never affectionate,
But it brings misunderstand rather then bonding,
Effort always collides with appreciate,
But isn't effort defined as commitment by some?

Commitment always get one into confusion,
Companionship always lead one to seduction,
Desperation always lead one to comparison,
Physical intimacy always gets compassion.

Concepts always end up thinking,
Ideas always end up stolen,
Condemnation always end up striking,
Showing always end up proven.

Wealth always comes from the thought,
Lust was never from the heart,
Scandals will never get caught,
Memoirs always meant to be crafted.

Luck Never Exist

Luck never exist, so does coincident,
Love exist always by accident,
Separating couples always have an evident,
To blame each other when it comes to judgment.

Luck never exist, so does talent,
The smart ones always stay silent,
The hardworking ones always increment,
The lazy ones end up getting accomplishment.

Luck never exist when it comes to life,
Even when you're choosing a girlfriend of a wife,
You promise the moon, the land and even the sea,
But when you already have her, argument is all you foresee.

The Mind is so complex that no one can expect,
How much more of power and potential that it can project,
To crave for someone is always an impact,
To not have that something is also in the aspect,
Showing off something always has the sense of respect,
To let the mind help you might always be correct,
But if you believe in yourself, then everything will be intact,
For this is what The Great Mind has always implicate.

The Imbalance that Balance Us

If you want something, you work for it,
Sometimes you'll receive it right after you work it,
Sometimes you have to wait a while longer to appreciate it,
Most of the time you'll ponder, "How the fuck can I miss it?"

When you show good deeds, others praise you,
When you project good intentions, others think of you,
When you found the solution, others thank you,
In return does all That really satisfy you?

If you are laze, everything turns messy,
If you are bad, everything seems so easy,
Sometimes you have badass attitude, girls find it sexy,
Sometime you do the wrong, it makes your heart happy.

To do good or to do the wrong doing,
Is actually what we do best as a human being,
Screwing underage always gets you canning,
Lying about the truth always make you charming.

For all the things that we do daily,
Is actually worse then a tooth fairy,
In the world today everyone need to be tech savvy,
To make sadeness go and make ourselves happy.

Cunt-fused

Why is it most females would rather keep quiet about something that they like to do or someone that they admire about but at the same time keep on giving response to the things that they don't fancy or someone that they don't fancy? Is that just female or is it just me?

When we men want answers, we want it straight to the point. I guess the same goes to women ey? Its proven when a women gets pissed of at you when only tell them the real shit about something. Same goes to the men. Maybe we tend to forget how important is that answer to the women. Same goes to the men. So why would most females just keep on responding and giving feedback to the ones that they aren't attracted to? Why not just say, "you suck, buzz off!". Owh! and now you would think that's very impolite to such a thing? That is bullshit. Instead you're torturing the heart. The heart has to calculate the amount of oxygen then has to mix it with the blood and then they have to distribute it to your entire body. Would you think the heart had the time to think about whats polite and whats not? Hell no! That is what the brain does, not the heart!

And guess what the guys think about the girls that are outspoken. They are so smart they called them bitches or sluts. Now, where in the blue hell did that came out? Outspoken females = attractive hotties! They speak their mind out. You'd be surprise if they can blow your minds out and not only your other brain.

The heart is already doing a very complicated and complex job EVERY single second of our breathing lives. So don't complicate it any further. Keep it simple and see how the world will evolve into. Ja-Na

Separated

Today all kinds of feelings runs through me, guild, sad, happy, excited, anger, hatred, you name it I feel it. Why? Well, its because this very day my brother is on a flight back in hometown for good and I feel very lonely and also very guilty for what had happen over these past few years. I hope that I can pick up the bits and pieces and start my new life quickly. Cause one day, I want to be with my brother again. This time no more mistake, for this is the biggest mistake I have ever made in my 28 years of living. Damn to the ones that con me, damn to the one that cheated me, damn to the ones that deceive me. For I no longer hear you, for I no longer have mercy on you. Thrust is something so priceless. I just let it slip away so easily. I have fail and I hope that one day I will be forgiven.

Ease

The more I stop thinking about it, the lighter my mind gets. At last, I can finally rest my head to sleep in within my biological clock. I pray and hope that what I am about to do is the right decision and at least I would be able to stand on my two feet to walk till the end of the tunnel, along with the ones that I will tagged along after this.

It may sound cruel when I were to mention that the things that I do involves life forms which is capable of making crucial decisions. Nevertheless, when something that one put effort into doesn't happen, once or twice or even a several times, I guess that goal is not meant for that person. Or maybe, the time has not come for it to come into the picture to be hang in one's room to be apprecieted.

So long old memories, so long to the effort that I put into. So much time, so much materials being shaped with. But I'm glad that its over. For better or for worse, a sentence always needs a full stop after all the commas being tagged along the line.

Does it sound cruel or does it sound pleasant when its read out? In my opinion, its for the person who reads it, not for the person who writes it.

Words

Have you ever think of how you have lived your life. It doesn't matter whether you're young or mid or old? Do you take things the positive way? Or the other way?

I realize that words can be deceiving at the same time it can be deadly. It works both ways, towards an individual or back to its owner. Either both ways, it can be for the good or for the bad at the end.

Sometimes, words can be mistaken and misunderstanding arise. Its when an individual took it for granted or said it for granted. Didn't realize that what being said or heard may effect that individual or his/her surroundings.

Words can be lovely, slutty, bitchy or even dominant. It lures someone's heart to the other, it flirts between both sexes. It sometimes make both party feel good in a bad way and sometimes make one or the opposite obeys.

What a wonderful gift God has created for us human to use as a tool to get along with each other.

Look at todays world? Criminals get away with the best lawyers. Unhealthy cults sway people away from their believes. Conman gets all the money they want without getting caught. Leaders giving promises which never materialize and jeopardize his team.

What about the ones that once learn how to live life in a proper manner. That doesn't know how to cheat? That doesn't know how to lie? That doesn't know how to mislead people on purpose. All these people do is convince, with a little hope that they can have a little bit more air to breath. But in return, all that they encounter is bad things happen.

What is Right and What is Wrong? You tell me.

Until then Ja-Na

Hope

What does the word hope means to you? Does it gives you a boost in whatever you're trying to achieve? Or simply just another requirement in a day dreaming process?

Well as for me hoping and wishing is just simply useless. It brings you nowhere unless you have a strong will to be patient. What if one breaks down? What if one thinks that its the end of everything that one tries to achieve in life?

The question is does hope exist in this world that we live in today? Or is it overrated and being manipulated by the stronger mind willed people to take advantage of the weaker ones?

People say the world is getting more advance each day, with all the sophisticated gadgets and tools to enhance the human races' lifestyle and way of living. To uphold the ego of mankind. I say the world is getting more primitive, more savage, more like animals, only the strongest survive they say. Well we are animals after all..right? We just tagged ourselves with names to make us feel better, to make is in the happening group called human being.

Wheres the love? The teamwork? The pity? The care? The concern?

Well, I can tell you this, fuck hope. They ain't no wish come true when u see a falling star. People die when a star falls. They ain't no Mickey Mouse to cheer u up when you fall, when you're sad, cause Mickey's on TV! not in your bedroom or beside you.

Haha..just another crappy thought. Ja-na