W221 350L Finally!

I've always fantasize of driving the new Mercedes S Class W221 350L (long wheelbase)the moment I laid eyes on it months back. Today I got to drive it! Sweet! As expected the interior feels good( of course nothing beats the Rolls Royce interior). I repeat it feels good, not look the looks. The tachometer was awesome! its like GUI on PC *giggles*.

The torque was good but still can feel the jerky feeling. Speed was impressive. Cornering was rather scary. It felt like I'm gonna sway off the road when I did a decent turn. I guess its not good to corner in high speed with this car.

What keeps my interest in this car was the harman kardon speakers. For a standard package, I was really really falling in love with it. The menu selector or I rather call it GUI (Graphic User Interface) is rather better then the BMW. I've yet to sit in any new beemers so I guess maybe theirs will be more complicated (as always)

Aha! The lumbar seats comes with vibrators that massages the drivers back, awesome!

Overall I would still buy it if I were to have Gs. Until then Ja-Na

Vacation..

To have mum taught me her ultimate secret recipe was an honor. I finally get to do it with my own to hands and it turned out fine. Taste the same! yeay! But, I still have to work on the presentation.

Basically, my whole holiday was more to perfecting my bakery skills. Which I wanted to always do for so long!

Though rain pours down every single day in Miri, Sarawak. I didn't grumble or mind a bit, I miss the chill weather, miss the mosquito bite and miss the fact that I'm back home( At least in Borneo).

I wish that I really could make it back home to my hometown. I guess the next trip will be definitely be it. Though long lost friends are off back to work or out of my hometown, I definitely miss the ambiance itself.

Its great to see relatives far and near ties gather together though some are still having troubles internally. I do really hope that things will patch up for them.

As for me, I guess it was a great CNY, for me its a new start. I really can feel it this time. 2009 maybe a year where crisis submerge all over globally. For me its going to be a great year! Ya-Ta!

Now I'm back, lets make it happen people! Though my Mind is still dangling on visual. Its getting back its sight by the day.

Enough grief, enough agony, enough jealousy, enough pain.

Time to shine, time to roll out, time to be busy, and time to be bright again!

Until then ja-na

Its Tuesday

Well I've promise someone to update my blog on Monday. But, its already Tuesday! I guess I'll blog it out tonight. Sorry to keep you waiting CJ..

Ja-Na

Ox-ressusitated

I went back to Miri Sarawak for my CNY. Took a few photos, basically it rains the whole stay there. In KL it rains not more then 6 hours, but over there, the rain takes a break of max 15 minutes before it starts to rain again. I'll write back in on the juicy details(Still editing and choosing the right pictures)..So CJ..thanks for asking and thanks for motivating, I'm still choosing the pictures cause there are important for me to make the Tsunami of Saliva to occur..hehe..I'll prep and upload everything on by Monday. Until then Ja-Na

Idiocracy

What came out on the newspaper recently and also accusation towards the wrong party is total the act of idiotic.

How can a legalize sport is to be put to blame being using illegal items for the sport? Now what? You guys don't get the cut in between? Or just plain jealous? Or is it just lazy to even put effort in supporting the interest of the younger generation of this country.

Yes, paintball is legal in Malaysia, else why they held tournament all around Malaysia? Its generating money for everyone. The society is happy, as to the dealers, as to the law that legalized it on certain safety requirements.

No, airsoft is not legal in Malaysia, but hey, if other countries can legalize the sport, why not us? If you would to google up airsoft products. Even the military and law enforcers are impress with the result that is given. I guess Malaysia's Protector has more advance products and they have no interest in this type of bullshit.

But, if one were to get caught possessing or owning one, don't blame it on the others, don't blame it on paintball. Just make sure that airsoft is either STRICTLY illegal or ban it straight. Why is there still bits and pieces around whereby the big shots are the ones that is to get blamed for.

I'm not siding on even both side. As the matter of fact I love airsoft more then paintball, but the law abides Malaysian citizen to own one, so all we have is Youtube clips and also catalogs from the internet to quench our thirst for the passion of that sport.

I would really like to see the country evolves with more common sense in the brain and not just "whats my cut" philosophy to everything that goes in and out of the country. Fuck that!

It kills the enthusiast, it kills the dreams, therefore, it kills the interest to even live in one country when the law of it just doesn't make any sense. To evolve, to grow, one needs to bare with the consequences, due in time it will be all good. That's called effort. Is there effort in this matter?

Don't just look at the dark perspective of a sport or even a product. Think of the bright perspective on what good can it do to the society and also the country and it will be all smooth. Bad seeds will always grow, else what are law enforces for? Minimizing the cause is better then having it infected all over.

Its human nature that laws are mend to be broken, but if its kept and preserve in the proper correct manner, we can uphold and upgrade to be better human beings and not just being stagnant at one point but wish so much to grow.

Dangz

My PC's motherboard got fried! So, I'll be surfing less for the time being. I shall be blogging on an Intel Core i7 PC in the next blog entry *grin*

What's Love?

Some say,"Love makes your world a colourful one", or even "Love makes one blind" or "Love makes you things you never thought of doing before"

But what does it actually feel or mean, this Love. What does it do? How does it affect individuals? Does love have categories? Does love need conditions? Does Love even exist anymore?

Well, from My point of view, its nothing but bunch of bullshit. Its bullshit when someone is in denial of that love for something or someone. Love doesn't have to be shown or to be written. Love speaks for itself.

But, like every other word meant. Love too has pros and cons. Hah! I bet you even never thought of this one didn't you?

Lets see, whats so bad about Love? Lets start from the top. When there's love, there's jealousy. When there's jealousy, there's hatred, when there's hatred, here comes the interesting part. There's scandal, after that it becomes heartache, then it all goes around in a big circle again. Maybe I missed out a few other more important ingredients in this process of love.

But more importantly, what or would I put it, how did all of that happened? *smiles*

I can tell you one of many. It all started when a boy tells a girl, "Be mine, and I'll give you the moon and the stars". It used to be pickup lines back in our parents age.

Today its "Be mine, but you can't talk or meet any other guys"..?

So what does all that means? Its conditional Love! Imagine something so wonderful being put in as a contract? Something so pure, so sacred. Its like planting orchids then one fine day one will isolate it, cause its too precious or beautiful to be expose.

What da fuck is that suppose to mean? Does one ever remember who gave that flower to human beings? How can you decide one something that is not even yours? How can greed can just arise when one is dealing with another one? not thing?

Then comes the type of love.."I Love you, but I'm not in Love with you". Now tell me what da fuck is that suppose to mean? *giggles*

Does love have categories now? wow..There's so many rules and regulations in Love, where is the freedom? Cause that's all humankind have left.

No wonder you see people argue, kill, fight. Its all because in the beginning itself one is already spoiling the core.

Protesting or showing hatred doesn't help to get Love back. But, to build the One Love that always and has been in all human being is what we should do. So that, our future generation will enjoy the true meaning of Love. Ja-Na

How Da Fuck?

I was wishing a friend of mine yesterday a happy birthday, and wrote a poem which turns out to be something that I was kinda shocked to see it coming from me originally! It sounds like this:

Another Year, Another Number adds up,
Whatever behind you are experiences,
Whatever in front of you are plans,
But, whatever you do now
Makes that plan you have happen,
Don't worry about it,
Don't doubt it,
Don't look away from it,
You will definitely reach it,
Whichever way you take to it,
just do it!
Happy Birthday Warren my dear friend!

And when I went back home, every single sentence starts to re-play back in my mind, I was like..how da fuck did I pull this one out of the hat?

Ja-Na

2009

Everyone and every newspaper in town is saying that 2009 will have a great economical impact where everything will go through and not down the drain. Just how much more worse can humans thing about the situation that Earth is going to face?

Why can't the newspaper write the same fact but in a positive manner so that everyone has positive mindset to be ready for next year, at least!

If the whole world is to think that economically its going to slum, even the brightest philosopher can't help! Even religion can't help.

All we need to do is to look forward to 2009 with a positive mind so that everyone can emit that positive wave to the world and it will definitely be a better place to live on.

The word "teamwork" is not created for fucks. This is the time to make it to good use. Why can't there be harmonious atmosphere where everyone can bloom from it in economical aspect and civilization aspect?

Ja-Na

Another One gone with the Wind..

I just got off facebook. Again, straight in here after flipping through an album and also watching a video.

I must say I would really like to see in the end who's the last person standing! *grins*

To those that I know dearly is gonna get married or already married or in the verge of getting married just let me know and I shall drop a few lines. Don't keep me in the dark cause sooner or later...

I'LL KNOW! Ja-Na! *laughs*

Idiotic

How much more idioticity(i made this word out myself) can one get from another? Its already enough to be known that being lied in front of someone makes that same one not only look stupid but disgustingly utterly a cork to the other one!

Gosh! Even a baboon can have more common sense out of it.

I can't believe such human exist! Should it even be called a human. I think even calling it an alien is unworthy.

Fuck!

Ja-Na

Every Chance

When I look back in my "love life" department, all I can see is just nothing!

How can this be? How can I had every chance and simply don't grab it? Or I do not know how to grab it?

I have to admit to the fact that, I'm not good with this kinds of things. Thats why I always end up with nothing. Nothing solid, its just a close friend kinda feeling and I really do not know why.

The weird part is when I really like that someone, somehow or rather I'll tend to fuck it up unintentionally. Why does this has to happen to the one I 100% give my commitment to?

Is it that this is the sign to tell me that its not the time yet?( Like what others claimed). Or is this the bliss I have to bear and end up being a bachelor for life? And I would have to consult those who are trouble without chargers. After they feel alright, they'll joke and tell me "you should open up a consultation firm". To me that hurts, wheres the appreciation? Fuck!

Well, I've being friends with different types of females, maybe The Man Above wants me to meet more before he would let me settle with the final one.

I guess is true what they say, "Save The Best For Last".

Rarerity

Today I didn't get to do my laundry in time. That's a little frustrating.

But, today I get to eat steam fish! Yeah..steam fish! HAHA! Accompanied by a plate of bean sprout cooked with salted fish and a plate of tofu cooked with onions. DELICIOUS!

The best part of today's activity was the sight of a rare item which I think its rare. A Leica film camera which I think was used during the Communist occupation. Its really old and the leather is really thick! Everything is in good condition, even the camera itself is working fine. RM450 for that, if I had the bucks to buy it, I will! *laughs*

I even saw one of the many things in my wishlist. A thigh pouch! AWESOME! Still, If I had the bucks I'll buy it. its RM180! *sobs*

Overall, it was an awesome Sunday!

Will You..Will You Not?

I flipped through photo albums again at facebook and I'm back again *laughs*.

Another thought come into my mind. Once upon a time, a few housand metres away from where I live, I get to know this someone and its for quite sometime now we lost contact. It seems that we were never meant to be together. No matter how hard I try, she'll just back off with anger. I guess acceptance is my only option. Persistence will bring me no where but, straight to frustration. And then what?

What will I think of that person? Would I hate her? Would I be sad to do the same stupid mistake again even though after all these years? Would I be happy for her that she finally met someone that really cares and love her until the end of time?

In the 1st place when I said that I think that we are not meant to be together. That's what my Mind tells me after what I've been through. Carefully plan what would i say to her. It all crumbles.

This is the 1st person that gives me cold sweat everytime I think of her. Makes me worry everytime after I text or call her. Makes me restless everytime after I met her. Makes me feels like home everytime I sit on the couch where she lives. That's one thing I can never take it out from my mind. To be seated in someones home and actually for the 1st time in donkey years I can feel that I'm home. But in the end, one stupid move and its all gone, just one.

I'm not saying I've regret not being much more careful to save the day. But here's where it gets more interesting.

Was it my mind that's the main force that makes me thing of that her? Whereby that she is actually herself genuinely?

So now the question is, Will I keep of thinking of her about the person she portrays to be? Or Will I just might as well stop thinking of all the teletubies fantasies of being with her but to think that she's better off with someone else?

You might say that I should meet her up and tell her everything. Like they say, "Let your feelings do the talking". For all I know, I should do it. But hey, this is not Brooklyn or Amsterdam. Neither its Milan or Sicily. I just don't know how to say it here. Here in a place where stuff I say elsewhere works perfectly.

The elders did once mentioned, "There are Valuables you may gain possess of but, There are also Valuables best remains".

*Sigh* ..Ja-Na

The Greatest Moment in Live

I've just logged out from facebook. It starts to tickle my mind, and that's how I end up in here. Another sets of wedding photo(yeah what so great about that right?). Well this is no ordinary wedding photo.

This particular set of wedding photo reminds me right to the moment when I was still in school. When I knew this guy called Jonas Fung. Tennis is the one thing I'll always remember him by. But that's all that I'd remember since we were only schoolmates, not classmates. He's very active in church though. My bet is the relationship grew from there, or maybe elsewhere. Cause the wife is our junior in school. New kid in town at a point of time. Which turns out to be active in church too. I have to admit that she is gracefully a beauty. Jonas you are one lucky bastard! *laughs*

The thing is, there we go, another fallen man, that turns his whole life into the Man of the House. A father to be. Which I think is a great task to handle in years to come. Responsibilities, patience, tolerance, care, love. Everything that you can think of to make a person the best father figure that he can be in the near future for his kids to look up to.

Thats not all. Its the people that supported him to get him through his biggest day. His wedding day. All of that people in the pictures are the people that I reconize(well of course not all of their partners). One of many which I remembered I cycled with him to school everyday when we were in form 1. The next thing you know, he's all grown up maturely smart and handsome. Alvin Ling, time flies right in front of my eyes and there you are. Jason Sii is a person that I remember as a quiet person. By the way nice camera you have there *smiles*. The first thing that flashes in front of me is him, Ah Cheong and me playing marbles at a playground in Kiong Soon Garden. Gosh..what a way to think back those days.

I guess I am getting older. I see more and more wedding pictures. Both, my guy friends and my female friends are getting married.

Lucky, three of my best friend never upload their wedding pictures in here. Else, I would have cried, having sleepless nights, having this mortal guild in me. 2 of them make an effort to reserve a chair for me at their wedding dinner. How much more can I ask for? I'm speechless.

That's why after that incident. I'll always think of that moment, the moment that I read that short text message. Every time I browse through wedding pictures, I will always remember you guys. The Greatest Moment of your Lives, and I didn't make effort to be there to witness that.

You can have all the Money in the world. But, you can't have that few Hours no matter how hard you try. Time is just Greater then whatever you can think of having. The funny thing is, Time is always and will be with you at all times. Whereby money makes your heart pounds so fast that it sends pulse to your brains to instruct your lips to carve a smile on your face. How cliche..Ja-Na

Believe

I used to go to church every single morning since i was standard 3 until I finished SPM. I even went to sunset mass and Sunday mass. In between all that I went to other churches. To cut it short. I was raised S.I.B, educated and baptize in a Protestant church and getting my PhD in a Roman Catholic church. I guess still, my Mommy is the defending champion, she even attended masses in a Methodist church.

Enough about religion. What about what one believes in doing?

Do you believe that you can touch the moon and the skies? Do you believe that you can be successful in whatever field you are in the current future? Do you believe that one day, the world will be under one and one only ruler?

Sometimes it makes me wonder. Believing that one day I'll find the Right one. It never happens. But it turns out to be the other way round. I believe so deep in my heart that I marked the day that my eldest brother will come home(Sarikei) cause I believe that he's coming back. I can imagine him coming home, eating meals together, having fun doing traps in the backyard for naughty cats that steals our cat's food. For all I knew, that day was the day my late father passed away, and he really came back.

When I believe that I would have someone, someone to share my the air that I breath. It always ends up bad. Either the parents don't like me, or the family have to move to another state or country, or my mom just don't like her, or even as simple as a misunderstanding when she was have "the moment" of the month.

Like my colleague told me, religion is to give us hope. That I totally agree. For all the do and the don't in my past life nothing went the way I wanted it to be. But, I did hope for one thing. The one thing that I always ask from God in church every single morning in my prayers before I go to school. I asked for an interesting life(since life in Sarikei sucks to high heaven).

Guess what, I am having an interesting life. Going to college at a later age. Working and experiencing at the wrong moment of my life. Not having a pretty resume to be hand over to a company when I applied for a job. Jobless at one point of time. Working with wedges that can hardly be enough for a 16 year old kid gets for his/her pocket money a month.

Here I am writing this blog. Thinking what did I believe in having. I had it. Its because I believe that I'm already in it. What I don't understand is the culture shocks and the statements that people I've met and experience is way beyond my wildest imagination.

Right now, what I am thinking is actually nothing. I just don't know what to believe in now. I'm lost, I'm stranded, I'm still floating in mid air with water around me.

Sometimes there so much that I want to share, but it just seem to be insane to other human being.

Sometimes I really wanted to wake up and write something in here but the minute I woke up is already time to go to work.

I live a very simple life and yet its so hard for me to cope with it. I won't want to imagine what will a guy with a wife and 2 kids do.

Believing is so true that it happens. But the circumstances that one has to face is totally out of the picture that one painted in the mind. Can that be avoided? or minimized? Or is it against the Law of Nature that we are in control of the consequences which is applied to each and every step of one's move.

hmm..I guess I think too much. I wish I could just sit in a library full of books and do nothing but read and just don't care about whats happening and just keep on thinking of answers to my questions. Well, that's not going to happen cause I'm not a smart kid that have the luxury of being in an education facilities that provides such kinds.

Sometimes its hard to accept the path that one walks when one sees the other one walks a path which is so much different from his. One can be tolerant, patient, accepting, forgiving, sharing, caring, and learning. To what extend can one go? To what extend can one hold? Til then...Ja-Na

Another Sunday

After questing and leveling in WoW (World Of Warcraft) I ended up sleeping at 4 in the morning( Plus watching Knight Rider, Dexter and The Cleaner's new episodes). As I woke up, my plan was to do my laundry and do the lawn. My phone beeps, and there, an invitation to an open house for raya event has finally submerge! My ex-secondary classmate is inviting.

As usual I'll do my laudry, plus today I have a haircut (yeah, I cut my own hair) and was really excited about the open house, finally I can show the world with my camera how a Laksa Sarawak is made and looks like..

Now is 2:59pm..and guess what? My bike has a puncture tire..dang! I can't move! I guess I have to accept the fact that I'll be late for this meet up..lets see whether I can make it in time..Ja-na

Hell Its about time..

Its been 6 years, since I last stepped my foot into a place which smells tipsy, sounds excited, taste bitter, looks tempting and feel you wanna come again. This will be my 1st of many venues to come (I hope not). I don't wanna bump into the "old-boys" and have to drink til morning anymore! *laughs*


A friend of mine had an invitation to a newly open "rest house" I would called it (after looking around the area) which I think the name doesn't suit the ambiance even to the slightest bit. The music are more electronica rather then natural projected equipment sounds.

But heres the catchy part about this place! Is whats installed around the vicinity of the space. Poles! yeah! poles everywhere!(Duh! As if there's gonna be strippers coming through the smokes and start teasing the crowd) I guess this place will host those pole dancing tournament thingy in the near future.


The interior look kinda cheap and tone down after you saw the name of the place. I don't know what to say? I've been various clubs back then, this is more like a strip joint that has pre-strippers that still end up with their cloths on. Thats why I tagged it as a rest house.

But I guess girls would like to come here more often if there were more events that were held during the launching. Yeah girls! you know what I'm talking about after you see this picture!



Well, I must say overall the layout is good, both attractive and urban. I don't know the rates for their poison, but I guess it should be somewhere around the price of what KL has to offer. I guess full house is good, well that's what every club wants right? To have full house on the 1st day!




I only had a pax of JD coke, but I was rather drunk taking photos, great experience to take night shots in the club! Until then.. Ja-na!

Thinking Thoughts

To care for someone was never affectionate,
But it brings misunderstand rather then bonding,
Effort always collides with appreciate,
But isn't effort defined as commitment by some?

Commitment always get one into confusion,
Companionship always lead one to seduction,
Desperation always lead one to comparison,
Physical intimacy always gets compassion.

Concepts always end up thinking,
Ideas always end up stolen,
Condemnation always end up striking,
Showing always end up proven.

Wealth always comes from the thought,
Lust was never from the heart,
Scandals will never get caught,
Memoirs always meant to be crafted.

Luck Never Exist

Luck never exist, so does coincident,
Love exist always by accident,
Separating couples always have an evident,
To blame each other when it comes to judgment.

Luck never exist, so does talent,
The smart ones always stay silent,
The hardworking ones always increment,
The lazy ones end up getting accomplishment.

Luck never exist when it comes to life,
Even when you're choosing a girlfriend of a wife,
You promise the moon, the land and even the sea,
But when you already have her, argument is all you foresee.

The Mind is so complex that no one can expect,
How much more of power and potential that it can project,
To crave for someone is always an impact,
To not have that something is also in the aspect,
Showing off something always has the sense of respect,
To let the mind help you might always be correct,
But if you believe in yourself, then everything will be intact,
For this is what The Great Mind has always implicate.