The Wind

I've been so fucken busy with my life lately that at one point I don't have time to myself. Well, the fact that so many things happen though its only been a year means its a fucken good sign. But, to manage all those things in place is still a havoc in my head. Well, lucky I have the time to sit at home everytime I come back from home to organize the piles of shiet. And then came a spider. Truthfully, I would really like to get a steady girlfriend. After the things that happened to me today...fuck this shit..Its like wanting to fly a kite there is no wind. Dammit! I never think negative of this girl this time. But the she was like over thinking things and now this...fuck! I just don't want to be in this position anymore its enough. I don't want to be cornered to the wall and have to answer the questions on the wall which makes no sense and at the same time its a fucken wall! dammit! i need interaction! not wall! I had enough walls around me for four fucken years that broke me once. I'm not gonna be broken again. NEVER! Whatever I'm doing now is all not right, the best part, I get no answer and in return get a pile of shit just because I ask how are you doing? What da fuck is going on? Ish! If I pull the Kite and theres no wind, wait for the fucken wind to come then!